muni muni

continuing the thought from my previous post...

sometimes i feel that iv been left behind.. my batchmates are all working (well, not all.. some are still studying, but they either are going to law school, or getting an mba or whatver master's degree...)

they're permanent na sa company, or getting a pay raise, or promoted.. or moved to their 2nd (or 3rd or 4th or 5th...) job... some are pursuing a master's degree...

but me, im still studying, getting another bachelor's degree... and currently nagged with the feelng that i should really start planning my life.

then i miss that experience... i was working... i switched job several times... got a raise, got promoted... then i decided to come home.

sometimes, i ask myself if i made the right decision. i was already settling down there. i didnt exactly love my job, but my employers were nice (at least they were to me..)... pero tinotoxic nila ako... and my other officemates... grabe manoxic! and to think that i was their bunso! but it was fine, if i stayed a month more, i was ready to ask for a raise since i was really doing so much na then... plus my employer was already offering to sponsor me as immigrant.. green card na, hindi lng working visa! but then, i thought that 1) i wasn't really ready to stay there since i was getting more and more homesick 2) if i accepted the offer, i would have to stay with them for some years & 3) super mahal mag process ng papers

so yea, i guess coming home was really the right decision.. and taking up nursing is probably the best decision iv made so far. im really enjoying myself. i love what i do. and when i graduate and get my license, im gonna be earning real well... which means id just have to work my ass off for 5-10 years then put up a business and have the time of my life!

plus iv met a lot of great people... that probly is the best thing im getting out of this experience :)

then i realize that when we graduate, we'll be going our separate ways... and unlike the people i met when i was in ateneo, we will really go our separate ways... different countries, different states. reunions will be too hard to organize... and we'd be lucky if even 1/10 of our batch shows up to one!

e now pa nga lng, it's hard na to organize a block reunion ng ateneo blockmates ko e! last week, we had an H2 reunion, and only 10 of us showed up. but we're hoping that more people show up next time.. although i doubt if i can go to one in the next couple of months...

hay, ang sad no... "people always leave"... nux, one tree hill (gawsh, its super addicting! james lafferty! and im so loving the lucas-brooke exclusive relationshp thingy!)

hay, next year's getting me all excited, anxious, worried, happy, sad... excited that ill finally graduate and get a job (oh God bless us!), anxious coz i need to get my license & find a job that will sponsor me, worried that i might not get that license, happy since i can finally start living the life iv been dreaming of, and sad coz id have to say goodbye to most of my friends..

alam mo un, when we graduated from ateneo, we said we'd still have get togethers, dinner/movie/coffee/inuman regularly... just to keep in touch...

pero now, pag malapit na ung graduation, parang its sad to even talk about it. like you ask "o, where ka na after this?" and one goes "sa aussie" or "sa LA" or "new york" or "san francisco" at kung saan saan pa... like when will we see each other again, ryt?! haaaaayyyy...

and then, if a college friend leaves for another country to work there, we all have this get together, a despedida for that person...

e what about us? siguro we'd be having despedidas everyweek.. o baka everynight pa nga e.. or probly one big despedida for everyone na aalis...

aw, this is sad.. i dont know why im even thinking about that now.. wala lang.. the sem's just started and i should worry about doing ok sa 102 & 103.. pero kase everytime i realize that im finishing next year, i know i have to start planning na what to do after i graduate.. do i still take the local boards? where do i go? stuff like that... tpos when i think about where im going, i realize na konting people lang ung kilala ko na pupunta ren there... haaaaay... :(