i thought mababaw na survey lang e...

1. paano ka kumain ng donut?-- bite, chew, swallow... u know, the usual :)

2. describe yourself-- magulo

3. sinong kachat mo ngun?-- wala.. no one's online.. boooo!

4. san k gaLing kanina??-- just home... later pa ang alis e

5. ano ginawa mo dun??-- tunganga

6. kailan ka last tumawa?-- right now.. laugh trip!

7. anong masasabi mo sa nagpatawa sayo?-- aus to a!

8. kailan ka last nagpalit ng photo?bakit?-- the other day? trip lng... kesa tunganga totally ryt?

9. anong plano mo mamayang gabi?-- originally, dinner & movie w/ blockies, pero no one's textng me the plans, so either go out w/ ai to FF or tunganga & pack for bicol na :)

10. favorite music, genre?-- whatever

11. kailan ka huling nilanggam?-- uhhh, yea- i forgot

12. ilan na nagview ng profile mo?-- 230

13. ilan na inbox mo?-- marami.. junk!

14. huling kinain mo?-- polvoron... langya, foodtrip ngayong sembreak a! nonstop!

15. huling ininom mo?-- tubig

16. last site na pinuntahan?-- friendster

17. do you like kids?-- oh yes!

KALALIMAN
1. nasubukan mo na bang mahalin ang isang tao dahil lang mahal ka nya kahit may iba kang mahal?-- hindi pa naman...

2. nasubukan mo na bang ibigay sa iba ang mahal mo kahit alam mong ikaw ang mahal nya?-- hahaha, r u kidding? the story of my life! (regrets? nah! after 4yrs, natapos ren!)

3. wat can you say sa taong pinili ang iba kesa sa mahal nya kasi alam nya yon ang tama?-- baket? baket ganon? haaaay, wala, inintindi ko nlng.. martyr ren ako e! sana lng no regrets (hmmm.. may bitter a!)

4. ano ang dapat pahalagahan ang utak o puso?-- ako kse puso e.. pero sabi nila, dapat balance...

5. philosophy in a relationship-- magmahal lang! come what may...

6. wat if mas maganda/gwapo ka sa pinalit sayo?-- aus lang... mejo insulto lng nman.. haha!

7. tama bang ipaubaya ang mahal mo sa iba?-- nope.. dapat pnaglalaban!

8. sino mas pipiliin mo,matagal mo ng kilala o lately lang?-- kng kanino ka mas masaya... kng sino ung mas ka-jive :)

9. kailan nawawala ang love?-- never

10. anong masasabi mo sa taong pilit nanagmamahal ng iba kahit iba ang mahal nya?-- wag ganyan! be honest, most especially sa sarili mo!

11. lahat ba ng problema ay napapag-usapan?-- hindi ren.. some things are better off forgotten.. tipong forgive & forget nlng

12. paano kapag nalaman mong iba pala ang mahal ng mahal mo?-- ouch, pero goodbye

13. ipaglalaban mo ba ang taong mahal mo at alam mong mahal ka?-- i would now... nagkamali na ako once, i won't make the same mistake (haha, bitterness?)

14. possible bang mamiss mo ang hindi mo namahal?-- i guess...

15. is it easy to start a new relationship kahit mahal mo pa rin ex mo?-- that doesn't work for me!

16. nasubukan mo na bang pag-aralan magmahalang isang tao?-- yea.. it wasnt hard though

17. madali lang ba mainlove ng sobra in a shortspan of time?-- it's possible

wassup for EU, man?!

hmmm, what's been up? yesterday, we (meaning kats, tin, gi, noni & i) went to kamuning to buy cloth & have our aprons (for hospital duty) and extra uniforms made... my gawd, capping & pinning na sa nov5! hmmm, i wonder where we'll celebrate after... haha, im more excited sa celebration than sa actual ceremony. i mean, come on, how different is this fm my presch, elementary, high school & college grad? uupo lang there, try to behave ourselves for so much hours... tunganga lang. shempre, fun comes after!

anyway, we started early yesterday, so we were done around lunch time. i got home arnd 2, had lunch then continued my OTH marathon. i got a bit sleepy, so i took a nap. after 30mins, i woke up and continued my OTH marathon. how productive! guess what time i finished?! 6am! yup! that's 6 this morning! haha!

uhhmm, aira's got me convinced to go to the gym with her. and im thinking, "yea, it's about time." haha, last time i enrolled sa gym, i paid for 3 months gym time, i went there 2 or 3x lang! anyway, the classes look fun.. or if i get bored, i can just stay sa lounge & watch dvds or study while i wait for aira :p

so we're leaving for bicol on sunday, 3am. im finally going to the beach! yey! may quota dapat e... we all need to go to the beach at least 3 times a year to keep us healthy & sane... (last year was a record year, i think! i went to the beach 5-6x) 1x plng ako nakakapunta this year. bicol will be #2. hmmm.. if im good, il reward myself with a trip to any nice beach this christmas break... hehe! sort of like my christmas & bday gift to myself :)

im just home...

finally finished reg... so yea, im officially enrolled! although im still thinking if ill take NSTP2 this sem.. i could take the sat 1-4 class, but that still depends. ill be crazy to waste an entire saturday in school! what's the rush anyway? but if noni wants to take it, it's fine. we're also petitioning to have a values2 class opened for us. so if that's approved, i can actually take all the minor subjects i lack... which means i'd have no minor subjects to take my following sems... booooooo!

hmmmm... bored at home. i was supposed to go with aira to the mall since she needs some stuff. but i guess we'll do that tomorrow. i was thinking about going to gh kanina... wanted to buy some accessories for my nano... but since i paid na for my capping, la na ako money... haaaaay! dami gastos!

oh yea, i was starting to watch OTH kanina, but i fell asleep midway through the 2nd episode. ill watch it again later, when every1 here's asleep na :)

hmmmm... nothing to do! oh yea, i have 2 books waiting for me pa pala!

countdown to bicol trip: 5 days!
(sis! nagpaalam na ako! i asked papa, sabi nya, "malayo un, sama mo yaya mo!" tpos he said, pagusapan nila ni mama... e papasok na si mama ng room so i said "mama, punta ako bicol ha!" and she said "pumunta ka!" hehe! o record yan ha! nagpaalam ako 5 days before! galing tlga ng mother & father dear ko! steady! the bestest!)

Q & A

yey, sembreak!
im almost done enrolling. i only need to pay tomorrow then get my blue form. im taking 2 subjects lang... ncm 101 (16 units kse 8 units lec, tpos duty) & IT 2 (IT nursing whatever).. so mon-sat uli class ko. duty would be mon-wed (of course i have to make sure na walang duty ng friday & saturday! especially pagdating ng christmas season! o yan, no excuse to miss our parties!)... ncm101 lec ng thurs & fri. fri & sat naman ung IT. i was thinking of taking NSTP 2 na ren, but noni & i decided na we'll wait nlng for kats, gi & tin so we could all take it together... so un... i really hope this sem would be better for all of us!

so yea, im just home... what to do? what to do? edi mag survey!

1. who are you?~ soy eurosa

2. how do you feel today?~ steady, confused, anxious, sobrang naguguluhan... gusto ko umiyak, pero hindi ako naiiyak.. labo!... mamaya siguro! so hindi pala ako steady...

3. do you regret feeling that way?~ no... i don't like it, pero ganito tlga e

4. who was the last person who texted you?~ ronan (sana maging ok ka na!)

5. what's the song playing ryt now?~ you're beautiful - james blunt (nagulat ako bigla nag play after ko i-answer ung Q#4! perfect timing!)

6. how's the weather today/night?~ steady

7. who's the last person whom you chatted to?~ si andrew ung last nagleave ng msg but i was away fm the pc... ung nakausap ko tlga, si tin :)

8. what do you think of that person?~ si tin- she's wonderful (kasabay ko yan sa sira ulo moments e!) ... si andrew- he's nice

9. what brand do you choose:~ brand ng?

10. are you psychotic?~ nope, im totally sane... walang kokontra!

11. are you nice?~ usually...

12. how old are you?~ 22

13. what's your career gonna be?~ nurse, i guess... un inaaral ko e!

14. any current illness?~ wala naman... ung dating sakit pa ren... heart problem... haha, ilang years na tong ganito?!

15. current status?~ steady!

16. rocker or a hiphoper?~ hiphop nlng

17. eminem or dr. dre?~ ako

18. banana or hotdog?~ banana!

19. what time is it?~ 7.45pm

20. what's playing on ur mp3?~ it aint over til its over

21. is something bothering you?~ yups!

22. are you sad?~ yea...

23. what did you eat recently?~ spaghetti fm yellowcab... shoot, i had yellowcab for lunch & dinner!

24. what did you drink recently?~ agua

25. are you suicidal?~ nope! not me!

26. what are you thinking right now?~ waaaaahhhh!!! wag na, mashadong marami, nababaliw na nga friends ko saken e...

27. last person who was nice to you?~ everyone's nice

28. last person who was mean to you~ ewan ko... forget mean people!

29. what malls do you go to?~ khet san, basta mall!

30. what's the day today?~ monday

31. who's your crush? do you love him/her that much to the extent that you'd actually be his/her partner?~ crush? uhhhmmm, JAMES LAFFERTY! (sorry sis, sabi mo sayo si chad... iv fallen for james na... haha!) be his partner? why not?! that'd be fun! (oo na ai, cradle snatcher na kng cradle snatcher!)

32. anyone online today?~ yep.. marami sila.. im imbisibol, though...

33. who's the last person who gave you a testimonial?~ abet

34. what do you think of that person? is he/she nice?~ yea, he's nice.. and so kulelet!

35. what are you thinking right now?~ galing ng sagot ko sa previous Q a!

36. why are you thinking that thought?~ wala lng...

37. is there anything bothering you?~ yea

38. are you sure?~ yup.. obvious ba?

39. had fun in highschool?~ oh, love it! sobrang fun! haha, wow, i can't believe i can look back and think this way na.. hay nako, dati, parang ang laki ng problema ko! pano kse, ang aga nag bf... (o, no regrets ha...)

40. any unforgettable memories? marami mashado!

41. any song that makes you remember a past break up?~ bakit ngayon ka lang, ako'y sayo, ika'y akin, forevermore...

43. who are you missing right now?~ friends sa states...

44. what's in your pocket?~ im wearing boxers, no pockets

45. will you go to heaven or hell?~ heaven!

46. what are the 5 things you'll never leave home w/o?~ wallet, mobile, lipgloss... 3 nlng muna!

47. what time is it?~ 7:56pm ... enuf tym for another survey!
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1.the best nickname dat you ever have been called?~ eurosa (la lng.. sobrang gusto ko ung name na un!)

2. the best pals dat u've ever had?~ ai, pearl

3. the best places dat u ever been to?~ bohol! magic mountain!

4. the best gift dat u ever received?~ uhmm.. my life!

5. the best place 2 hang out?~ kahit san, basta wala mashadong gastos...

6. the best wardrobe dat u ever had?~hmmm... ewan ko.. basta pwede naka slippers!

7. best sport?~ basketball... UAAP basketball.. nothing like it!

8. the best thing dat u ever seen?~ hmmmm... this is hard...

9. the best ex among the ex(es)?~ nagiisa lang naman sha e...

10. the cutest animal that you like?~ our doggies... tarsiers!

11. the most adorable person to u?~ ryt now, james lafferty (ai, kaw may kasalanan nito e! sarap niyang isama sa beach para umitim.. then he'd be perfect!)

12. the most precious things that u ever received?~ my life nga... seryoso!

13. the most important people in ur life?~ my family & closest friends

14. the person dat u most miss?~ pearl

15. the most fav colors?~ red! pink ren

16. the saddest moment?~ when the truth hits u hard... and when u realize na ur falling out of love, or that khet anong gawin nyo, there's no point in pursuing a relationshp.. (o sabi naman no regrets un e.. khet 7 yrs un.. at least i can talk abt it now without wanting to kill myself!)

17. the happiest moment?~ pag nasa beach or when riding a good rollercoaster... or when ur with family & friends and nagkkwentuhan kayo and sobrang laugh trip... falling in love (o, san galing un?!)

18. the most romantic and memorable moment?~ uhmmm.. nothing comes to mind ryt now e...

19. the most suitable age to get married?~ uhmm.. 26? 27? 28? basta before i hit 30... pero let me enjoy singlehood muna!

20. the most eligible n charming guy/girl dat u adore: ano ba.. kulelet ha.. obvious bang si james lafferty?!

21. the person that you hate most?~ bawal hateful! it's bad for my health!

22. the best dream dat u hope to b real?~ beach house, steady life

23. the best colleague so far?~ colleague? my classmates?

24. the most frequent habits dat u do to urself: mag rant

25. the most irritating habit?~ depends who's doing it e...

26. the most fav teachers of ur highschool?~ sir melo (wala pang dot si.. wala pang dot si) & sir macky (steady! haha!)

27. the most fav band.?~ ung group namen ni shishi tartar & gicagix dati.. the best un!

28. the most fave vocalist?~ ako, fave singer ni shishi! haha... shox, miss ko na SAWI!

29. the best movie dat u ever seen?~ jerry maguire! all time favorite, hehe!

30. the best challenges in ur life?~ haaaay, pwedeng break muna from all challenges? walang tigil e!

31. the most fave frend 2 hang out with?~ aira, kdb, sawi

32. the best gift from my mommy?~ my life... her love... and ung pagiging steadyng mother nya! the best yan!

33. the most understanding person?~ marami... pamilya ko... si ate R

34. the most suitable place to get married?~ san sebastian church... sobrang gusto ko tlga ung church na un..

35. the most interesting place 4 honeymoon?~ basta secluded beach, kahet sang part pa ng mundo, id be happy!

36. the most suitable place 2 be buried?~ gusto ko, cremated tpos tago lang sa house...

37. the best age 2 die?~ basta old enough to have made all my dreams come true, pero not too old na pabigat na
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last na... pagod e!

1. anong brand ng suot mong tshirt ngayon?- no boundaries...

2. anong oras na?-- 8:28a

3. ano favorite mong gawin pag bored?- pag sa house, internet, soundtrip, tunganga, tulog (i try!), pag wala sa house, tunganga, soundtrip, chika

4. anong pinapakinggan mo ngayon?- i can see clearly now (woohoo! bob marley! beach tayo! countdown to bicol trip - 6 days!!!)

5. anong nararamdaman mo ngayon?- tamang steady, nalilito... hindi ko alam!

6. anong gagawin mo pag may sumuntok sayo ng walang reason?- waaaah! away to! pero kng malaki sha, sumbong ko sha! hmpf!

7. anong itsura mo pag nalalasing?- sabog, lutang, nagiging singkit raw, sobrang pula (oo na, mabilis nakong mamula...)

8. anong gagawin mo pag nakakuha ka ng Php1000 sa kalsada?- pulutin ko, duraan ko ung spot kng san ko napulot kse pag hindi raw gnawa un, kaw naman mawawalan..

9. anong balak mong gawin tomorrow?- punta school.. may meeting e.. lech!

10. anong brand ng huling sapatos na sinuot mo?- slippers e.. AE (waaaah, gusto ko ung isa ren! sana binili ko na!!! grrrr..)

11.kelan ka huling sumakay ng fx/taxi?- cab kanina... ayaw ako sunduin ni vicky e! palibhasa may pera sha and hindi nya kelangan humingi!

12. kelan ka huling nakakita ng multo?- never pa naman ako nakakita.. thank God!

13. umaakyat ka ba sa bubong ng bahay nyo?- uhhh, no

14. marunong ka bang lumangoy?- yups!

15. nakapunta ka na ba sa gateway mall?- yups!

16. ano huli mong kinain?- spaghetti... ay cookie pala for dessert!

17. nakasakay ka na ba ng cyclone loop sa starcity?- nope... parang hindi ko kaya sakyan un...

18. madalas ka bang makita sa baywalk?- hindi e...

19. nakakanta ka na ba sa videoke bar?- oo naman... pero private rm ha!

20. nakapasok ka na ba sa UP diliman?- yup, entrance test, stargazing, eco quiz bee, and shempre, FOODTRIP! (isaw, corn, fic, carioca! yumyum!)

21. anong katangian mo ang maipagmamalaki mo sa mga tao?-- uhhhmmm.. mabait naman ako, dba?

22. makulet ka bang tao?- hindi no! ang shy ko nga e.. super tahimik... ryt, friends?

23. magaganda ba kanta ni babyface?- yups! tamang steady!

24. e ng destiny's child?-- yups ren!

25. naexperience mo na ba na maglakad habang umuulan?- OO! memorable ung last 2.. tin & i going sa derma.. lech! tpos KDG walkng back to sch fm kenny.. lech! buti nlng i brought extra clothes.. bad day!

26. magaling ka ba magscrabble?- i dont know... tagal na ko hndi naglalaro e

27.mahilig ka ba sa movies ni jackie chan?- mas gusto ko si jet li!

28. ok ba sayo ang long distance relationship?- siguro kaya ko kng matagal na kme together.. tpos alam namen na temporary lng, na we'd be together again soon.. hndi ko kaya ng matagal.. pag lampas 1 yr.. lech! hindi ko kayanin!

29. kelan ka huling namili sa sm?- hmmm.. cant remember!

30. anong gagawin mo pag may biglang humalik sayo ng hindi mo alam?- kng si james lafferty, aus lng!

31. describe mo nga mga friends mo?- sobrang steady.. priceless!

32. may nagregalo ba sau nung bday mo?- yup! pinakamemorable pa ren gift ng sawi.. thanks for making my dream come true.. mga lokaloka kayo! i still have the card.. and the 2 naked guys are still there...

same realizations

bored, not yet sleepy (mother, why do u have to be such an insomniac? why'd i have to get this from you?! hehe!) and with nothing to do, i went to peyups.com... it's been some time since i read something from there...

so anyway, there's this article entitled realizations... la lng.. parang nice sha :)

Realizations
Contributed by iced_coffee (Edited by amplifier)
Sunday, October 09, 2005 @ 12:00:00 AM


For as long as I could remember, I have been living in this peaceful and undisturbed place, enclosed in sturdy and powerful walls. Plenty of people have tried to lure me away from here. Some say that I was missing half of my life by confining and isolating myself. Others condescendingly shake their heads in amusement, and knowingly declare that I will eventually surface from my dwelling. Whereas others more seek to tempt me, by promising things left and right, trying to make me believe that it was better for me to be with them, and outside my sheltered condition.

Amongst all these, I stubbornly shook my head in defiance, because I was certain that my present situation was what’s best for me. It is my choice to be here, anyway. Away from pain, sheltered from sorrow, and safe from getting hurt once again.

But as fate would have it, you came. Amidst the crowd, you held out your hand to me. I tried my best to refuse you, I really did. I burrowed myself further inside my place, but still you were persistent. I tried to get in touch with my cynical nature and recalled the reasons why I would rather confine myself in the first place, but I was unsuccessful. Slowly, reluctantly, I find myself leaving my personal hole. And you were there, waiting.

You opened my eyes to a wonderful place, and indeed, I felt bliss. There was so much to explore, things I never thought existed, and emotions I have almost forgotten I was capable of feeling. I finally came across things that I only saw in my secret fantasies. You and me. Together. And for that moment, that is all that mattered.

Yes, for a while I genuinely forgot about my past existence, and I have almost convinced myself that, as long as you are here, I was better and happier. Almost. Without warning, I slowly stirred from my trance, like a light bulb inside my head was turned on. I was reminded of the cruel realities that seem to cast a shadow over this different world I am now in. People who previously appeared as angels were now creeping back to me as monsters of my past. Places that seemed beautiful and magnificent now looked haunted. A variety of unfamiliar feelings slithered inside me—jealousy, sadness, bitterness.

I searched for you, but you were not there. All of a sudden, your fingers deliberately slipped away from mine. The hand, the very being, I foolishly believed would always be there, was gone.
Now I am lost and confused. I cannot return to where I came from, for you have already shown me another world beyond my own, a place where I ridiculously trusted that dreams could come true yet again. I cannot remain in this world either, since I am afraid of not being able to survive on my own, without you to hang on to.

It took me quite a while to realize, and to finally admit to myself, that I have fallen in love with someone I should not have fallen in love with. And now I have no idea what to do next and where to go. The wall that used to be my shelter already has crumbled down at my feet. Once more, I am everything I swore I never will be again.
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wala lang... i want to sleep!!!

oh, i was looking forward to going out of town 2x this sembreak, ryt? well, 1 got cancelled... but at least there's still bicol to look forward to... wow, beach. sana we'd go surfing. haha! ryt, magfeeling! basta sand, sun & water, ayos na ako!

busyness?!

oh goodness! i haven't posted for over a month! haha! it's not that i've been busy.. tamad lang tlga... anyway, so yea, i went to pearl & jomar's wedding... then peepo's baptism & first bday (well, actually, i wasn't able to go to the baptism since i had to go out with my family muna..) so un nga... i was telling dearest mother that im getting old na... what's up?! me attending weddings & baptisms of my friends' babies! what's wrong with the world?!

then just yesterday, aira & i heard some news... (sis, alam mo ba ung latest? si ano raw.. buntis! oo! nabuntis ni ano! haaay... because the baby is now a lady, and soon she'll be a mommy who'll have her own baby! hahaha!) wala lng...

it's just that her's was the last debut i went to... that was a little over a year ago. and now, we learn that she's preggy. still not sinking in! haha, aira & i spent over 2 hrs talkng about it sa cbtl... & we kept talkng abt it even while watchng 40 yr old virgin (sis, she's 19, obviously not a V kse she's having a baby in a couple of months! haha.. ang kulelet!)

gaaaaawwdddd... tumatanda na tayo! (oo, hndi lang ako.. pati kayo! :p)
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sembreak na! nakabawi na ako ng tulog... im almost finished w/ shopaholic ties the knot... i have 2 more books to read.. iv seen 2 movies sa moviehouse... iv started my OTH marathon. actually, 1 episode pa lng... ill try watchng some more tomorrow. i can't watch OTH while reading, can i?! out-of-town trip nlng, complete na... and there are 2 coming up! so yea... makng the most of it...

coz next sem, hospital duty na! buti nlng super light load lang kse im done with my GEs and all... basta 3 subjects nlng-- NSTP2 (tell me again why we need to take this...), values 2 (may values naman ako a!) & IT 2.. (sana bumalik si sir AGA!) i don't have to take them this sem... but i dont know.. ill probably take NSTP 2, get a certificate fm ateneo OSCI that iv been to several immersions and all para i don't have to go out sa community or sa camping (hello! iv spent 2 nyts sa farm sa batangas... that's enuf immersion for me! yoko pumunta sa makiling no... may mumu there e!)

yun lng.. i guess that's all the babaw stuff that's been happening to me...

so yea, soundtrip muna while reading shopaholic... tamang steady!