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iv just updated my multiply site.. actually, i just uploaded some pix & copied some of my posts here...

i have a lot of online photo albums.. iv forgotten some of them na.. but they're around :)
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i was lying in bed kanina, but i wasnt sleepy so i was just thinking about my day & how uneventful it was...

then i remembered my chika session with some of my blockmates. 4 hours of idleness ba naman... shempre, andaming chika.

some stuff i heard-- shocking... some sweet.... some inspiring... some funny...
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slowly, people are coming to terms with things. and it's nice to finally have the truth-from-my-perspective out... khet na sa few people lang.
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what's sssoooooooooo not nice about being in a small school is that your business is everyone else's business... scratch that... not naman everyone... just a few other people na hindi naman talaga concerned... i guess hindi talaga nawawala ung people na paguusapan ung buhay ng may buhay. siguro the adventures in their lives aren't exciting enough...

as i always say, people can talk all they want. eventually, talks die down. new issues come up. people forget & move on. some pretend to forget. there are a few who hold on... pero konti lang sila.

we should just let them be. let them believe the news they "heard" & passed around. let them believe the little truth they want to believe in... even if in the back of their minds they know there's more to that truth they know, hayaan na sila sa gusto nilang ibelieve.
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it's ok naman talaga for people to talk e. what's irritating is when they judge you. and when they act all author-y na andaming dagdag bigla ng story mo.
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so anyway, im not perfect & i won't pretend na hindi ako nakikichismis. but i try to hold judgment ano man marinig o makita ko. most of the time, ayoko na magpakwento e.. pero lumalabas at lumalabas tlaga ang kwento...

like ung chismis na narinig ko kanina... it's shockingly funny na nakakabother, pero ano naman, ryt? kanya kanyang buhay lang. sana masaya sha... kse ako masaya Ü
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by the way, i was acting all bitter a few nyts back. naisip ko lang how some people can get so cynical. i just got to thinking about the different reactions people had sa story ko (na dating kay gulo... pero ayos na un!). some were very supportive, and i appreciate those people... very much (oh, you just couldnt imagine how much!). especially those people who were holding on for me during those times na i so wanted to give up. thank you thank you thank you! thanks for believing when i didnt want to believe anymore. thanks for praying for me :)

then there were those who listened to my story but kept mum. somehow, i appreciate those people too.. i mean, they did not judge me. or if they did, they kept it to themselves.

there were those who i guess had their own opinions about me before, but did not let those opinions stop them from getting to know me. thanks ren! hihihi :p im not so bad after all :p

then there were others who said they were concerned about me. they said they just didnt want to see me hurt. i wouldve been thankful, but everytime i talk to them, i can see na they were waiting for me to breakdown... or waiting for disaster to strike. it got too tiring to tell them the story coz obviously, they've already come up with the conclusion that ill be broken in the end, and i guess they were too busy preparing their "you'll be ok", "you'll get over that", "you're better off without that", "we'll be here for you, just text us, we'll go out and we'll help you forget" and whatever else speeches they could come up with to show me the support i wanted.

and those who judged me with the little they know... and until now, they're holding on to that idea of me. may ganon tlaga. as i told a very good friend way back in college-- you can't please everyone... and what's great about that is you don't have to. sorry na lang sila for passing up the chance to get to know a good person. (thanks for reminding me this Ü)

to everyone- IM HAPPY NOW Ü thanks! thanks for those believers & non-judgmental people for helping me out. and thanks ren for those cynical & judgmental people... i loved the challenge. im sorry if i proved you wrong. sometimes, things DO WORK OUT... the THINGS YOU PRAY FOR... GOD GIVES THEM TO YOU... in that "package" you imagined it to be... and then it gets better. i guess i was praying for the right thing :p