sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down...

mommy cassie kept repeating that to me a couple of times last night. iniinggit nya ako since they were to go home early because their CI did not show up, while the rest of us were stuck in the ER. the 6 of them all agreed to take a cab going back to kuya alvin's place & get their cars instead of waiting for us so we could all head back together.

id save u all from the boring details of the story & go straight to my point.

the rest of the group found out earlier that as they were heading home, they were held up in the highway. actually, it was mommy cassie who was victimized, while the rest of them stood there shocked, shouting & crying. when they were crossing the highway, a car zoomed past them, grabbed mommy cassie's bag, & she ended up getting dragged for around 10-15meters. luckily, the only scratches she got were from her landing on the ground when she finally let go of her bag. we were just thankful that there were no other cars there to hit her, and as she was being dragged, she felt as if she was floating. she didnt get any scars from the dragging. she got a swollen right hand after she landed on it & some bruises from clutching her bag, but that was it.

i could just imagine how traumatizing that was for her, and for her groupmates to see that. imagine, 5 girls sila & kuya sam was the only guy with them...

anyway, when she stood up, another car (actually, feeling nila it was the same car with the same guys inside) passed by and asked them what happened. there were big firearms inside the car. after that, an auv passed them & the people inside identified themselves as police...

so anyway, they no longer reported it to the authorities since they did not trust the place. we just told our dean about the incident & insisted that we no longer affiliate with that hospital to protect the students.

haaaay, wala lng.. the past couple of weeks has been crazily surreal. 2 fridays ago, mommy effie's bag was snatched from her by men aboard a motorcycle when she was walking from school to the q ave station. thinking back that nyt, we were supposed to be walking with her if only we waited for her for a couple more minutes. but since the 2 friends i was walking with were quite in a hurry, we told her that we'd go ahead. when we reached panay ave, we heard some people shouting, then saw kuya sam running. it was scary since it was just us 3 girls that time & the place was not that well-lighted. when kuya sam approached us & told us what happened, we were scared. then we saw mommy effie. she already gave up on her bag & i was riding the mrt home with her, she said that she was just thankful that nothing bad happened to her. she said that it was better that she let go, instead of risking getting dragged. i agreed with her. i mean, there were worse things that could have happened.

then the next day, we got news of paul's passing away due to a VA. he was with his twin. the news was so hard to believe since i just saw him the night before during our class. basta, parang ang hirap pa ren paniwalaan.

this afternoon was our first ncm class since that happened. when i saw his gf arrive, i asked her how she was. she gave a faint smile & said she was ok. when we got sa classroom, she was crying & shaking. one could not imagine how hard that must be for her. we told her to sit with us sa class, to stay sa front instead of their usual seat sa middle. ayoko ren sa back sha umupo coz i know she'll just see their spot & that would be hard. at least sa front, she just has to face the prof. i admire her nga kse despite what happened, she did well so quiz namen kanina (habang kami ng mga katabi ko e mejo halos bumagsak lng namn :p) paul must be very proud of her.

anyway, december na & we're supposed to be happy, celebrating the season... but sometimes, parang ang hirap maging totally happy. i mean minsan, parang ang hirap salubungin ang christmas pag wala kang pera for gifts & shopping... pero our christmas should not feel empty because of that. we should just remember that as long as we have the people we love, we have lots of reasons to celebrate. as long as we're safe, we have something na pwedeng pagsalu-saluhan, no matter how simple, and as long as we're alive & healthy, we should be thankful. we should just celebrate life.

sa mga friends ko reading this, pray kayo lagi ha. pray whenever u go out, pray wherever you are. pray when ur scared, when u feel unsafe. grabe, one time, i was walking from the mrt to hi-top & for some stupid reason, dun ako dumaan sa place kung san nanakawan si mommy effie. i did not take a trike kse lapit lng ng hi-top. half-way sa street, kinabahan na ako... i kept looking back lalo na pag may naririnig akong motorcycle or trike. one time nga, a motorcycle with 2 guys passed me... e sobrang nagdadasal ako tlga non.. napadasal ako lalo when i saw them. i was praying til i reached school. nalimutan ko na kung ano gusto ko bilhin non sa hi-top :p

hay, nakakasad lng tlga. parang ang hirap to feel safe kahit saan. scary mag cab dahil malay mo ba kung topak ung driver. scary mag mrt kse i have to walk home pa magisa. kkapraning, i swear. pero un nga, pray lng ng pray... un lng naman pwede naten gawin e. well, pwede kang tumakbo o lumaban, pero malamang nasaktan ka na non o nakuhaan ka ng stuff.. kaya pray nlng na sana walang masamang mangyari...

ay, it's almost my bday, & i dont know how ill celebrate it. shempre i want to celebrate it kse this might be my last birthday (at least for quite sometime) na ill celebrate here sa pinas. on my next bday, ill probably be in the states na. yikes!

i was planning to have a small celebration here sa house on sat. nothing fancy, just an after dinner party. kaso may 7am duty ako the next day. i dont know naman if i can celebrate it on sunday kse may work naman ung ibang friends ko. next sat naman, bday na ng bunsong utol ko, so ayoko naman makisabay. besides, may outreach event kme. sa friday naman, xmas party ng tropa. haaaay, bahala na! basta i want to celebrate khet papano... wala lng. i just feel na despite everything that has happened the past year, i still have so much to be thankful for. andami losses, pero may gains den naman. parang puro struggle pero at least im alive & healthy diba? and i have the people i love.

last year, ung bday wish ko, sana maging happy naman ung people dear to me. marami namang sumaya e... this year, im wishing for the same thing. plus good health, safety & lots of blessings for us & them... mahirap isaisahin ung wish ko para sa mga taong yan... basta, pagdadasal ko nalng ren kayo :p

haaaay, after this very long post, hindi pa ren matapostapos ung pag download ko ng grey's anatomy season3 episode10! sorry, un ang aking kinaaadikan... that & one tree hill season 4. i download the episodes every week para updated :p wala lang.. kakaaliw e!