a heartbreaker

i just got home from watching the boyz2men concert with gica & kathryn... and i have to say that it is one of the biggest heartbreaker there is... i only wanted to hear one song tonight, but they never sang i miss you.

well, that's over now. i was just hoping that the concert would take my mind off the school issue we've been having the past week... sad to say, it didn't.
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these past few days have been so difficult and emotional for my barkada in kgc. i just don't understand how this certain issue got so big. why are they making such a big deal out of it?

some months back, one of us had an issue with some guys from school. our friend filed a formal complaint, outlining all their offenses, all of them major, which included coming to school intoxicated, bringing a balisong to school and some 3 others. what happened to our complaint? well, it was filed, they said they sent letters to the parents of the 3 kids... and... that's it.

now, we're hearing that some people filed a complaint against our barkada. i don't know how true. and i definitely could not imagine why.

i don't know. i can't think straight.

my only comfort is knowing that there is a just God looking out for us.

summer heat

ive been telling some of my friends how much i need to go to the beach right NOW. i so miss being under the sun, lying on the sand, talking & laughing with friends... getting a tan (a very dark tan!)

well, i got my dose of the sun, alryt-- during our community duty, that is. imagine, having to walk around in our white uniform, wearing stockings and black shoes, carrying our OB bag, walking from house to house, pausing long enough to ask the people some info we needed, with some drunk guys walking around...

it was ok, really.. but so tiring! and no one was selling water in the area. since i do not drink soda, i had to wait until we got home to drink water.

anyway, im hoping tomorrow will be more exciting. i bet it will be-- coz we're helping out in Operation TULI!

our prof taught us how to do it, so we spent our entire lecture learning it and practicing it. since we can't do it on an actual... you know... we practiced using a chicken's neck. so they let us try it, from aspirating the anesthesia til doing the wound dressing. i dont think we'd actually do it on our own, but assisting a doctor would still be fun.

hmmm... i think i really am meant to be a nurse...

random thoughts

gelo requested that i update my blog, kaya pagbibigyan ko.

hindi na ako mashado maka-blog kasi i enrolled nga ng summer sem, ryt? e i have class ng monday til saturday, so obviously, wala ako mashadong time to blog. and besides, boring ang aking life and i couldn't think of anything to blog about... kaya susulat nlng ako ng kung ano man pumasok sa utak ko!

-- im writing my blog this way kse naiinis ako. i learned na may ilang people from KGC na iniisip na mashado kmeng mapagmataas & hindi down-to-earth. i even heard a teacher go "ay, ayan na ang mga sosi" pagdating namen sa school. parang HEL-LO? how about trying to get to know us? judge kse ng judge.. hmm, baka gusto nila makita ang jologs side namen?

-- midterms week actually right now. i have my bio & pharma midterms tomorrow, pero hindi pa ako maka-aral so im just checkng my emails & blogging.

-- i had 2 classes dpat kanina, pero my prof (same ung prof ko sa bio & pharma) was absent... so nagpunta na lang kmi nila kats, edward & allan sa UP at nag-isaw trip. grabe, we waited around an hour, kse pagdating nmen dun ng 2, wala pa ung isaw. pero it was worth the wait tlga. haaay!

-- hindi ko pa nakukuha ung white uniform ko. starting monday, we'll be wearing that na for community, pero tomorrow ko pa makukuha coz i had it altered. pano ba naman, low waist? sana ok na ung fit!

-- mainit ang barkada namen sa school (well, what's new?). kse ung midterms namen sa health care, sobrang hindi naman naturo ung mga lumabas, so obviously, we protested. hindi lng naman barkada namen ung naiinis e. pero kse, we are very vocal about it. kaya un, ewan ko ba. they could do whatever they want to do... basta kme, we just want them to fix the system!

-- naiyak ako kanina sa school.. pano ba naman, si mamsy kse, ang init ng ulo. e diba nga, may issue na kme sa admin, tpos pati barkada, nagkakainitan na ung iba. bigla shang lumabas and told me na uuwi nlng raw sha. e nakakainis un dba? sabi ko sa kanya, bat naman sha magagalit samen. we're supposed to stick together. so ayun.. we went to starbux and nag discussion. buti nlng naayos un. hel-lo? hahayaan ba namen na ganong bagay ung sisira sa barkada namen?

-- sobrang gastos ko the past few weeks, kaya i promised myself na no more shopping for me. i listed down the things na kelangan kong bilhin.. well, actually, things ive been meaning to buy. so may budget allotment na un. pero random shopping? bawal na tlga un!

-- oh, and by the way, sa may hindi pa nakakaalam, im finally over HIM. (kung hindi nyo kilala, hehe, sorry!) yup! honestly! wala lng.. be proud of me! after years ng pangungulit ko sa inyo, natauhan na ren ako! no more bitterness, no more regrets. basta, masaya!

-- wala na akong masabi kaya ill share with you some quotes na lng...

~ stop analyzing life. just live it. analysis is what makes it complicated.

~ you need to let go. you need to forget. you can shed buckets of tears over your own mistakes, but it will never change anything. he will never come back to you. you have to stop fooling yourself that the universe will conspire to get you 2 together again. the universe does not even think you deserve a 2nd chance...

well, un lng ung mga quotes na naalala ko.

ayan (gelo), mahaba ung update ko. good for 2 weeks na 'to ha!

what's up?

after 1 week of summer classes, i realized one thing... the next five weeks will be hell-ish! i mean, the first week was ok since we were just going through course overviews and intros.. but ive had 4 quizzes, one for each of the subject im taking this summer. so imagine what the next weeks would be like. ***shudder***
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anyway, the galera trip ive been looking forward to would have to be pushed back. i won't be going with the SAWI next weekend, which really SUCKS since iv been looking forward to this for almost a month. but since i have to fulfill my requirements as a student (don't u just hate it?), i have to stay here.

my kgc friends are also planning to go to galera, but i dont know when. nothing's definite, but i sure hope we could go. but i still can't accept the fact that im not going with the SAWI! us girls having the time of our lives at the beach... hmmmm...
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i saw hide & seek with golps, juls & obray last friday @ eastwood, and i swear, i got so stressed with that movie. i knew it was a suspense movie, so i don't know why i agreed to see it, when iv been so stressed the past week. but anyway, i got to rest the entire day saturday, so im fine now :)
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and now, a little bit on love...

i woke up saturday to a text of a friend. she informed us that her "relationship" with this guy has just ended, which really surprised me, since we were talking about them just 2 days before that and they seemed fine... happy, even.

but i guess love is something we (my SAWI friends in particular) can never understand. we could get lucky sometimes, but most of the time, we get hurt.

i don't know about the rest of them, but me? im staying away from love right now. im seeing one too many friend getting hurt, and i don't think i'm ready to go through something like that (again?!?).

however, im pretty sure my friends would react when they hear me say this (or read what i just wrote)... so all im saying is, im not gonna be pushing the issue anymore. im still sticking to our AJA thing, but i won't go actively searching for someone (i never intended to, anyway!)

and about SUB? i guess that one is over. hindi na ako magpapakatanga...

AJA girls, i guess i better start saving up for our SPA date...

im sick..

hmmm... being sick on a friday sucks! ive had bad colds the past 2 days, and now, my throat hurts.. actually, my entire body hurts! i got a massage last night, but i still hurt all over... daym!
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just realized i havent blogged for almost 2 weeks. everything's just been so crazy... went to baguio after our RLE finals. i thought we were going home wednesday PM, then i learned that they all planned to go down thursday. good thing i brought some extra clothes...

anyway, baguio was fun. it was a little warm our 2nd day there, but it was fine. ill post pictures when we have everything in our house fixed..

that's the other thing that's keeping me busy. when i got home from baguio, we already moved to our old-new home. so i had to fix my stuff... we dont have DSL here, although i can use the computer in mom's office for DSL connection. thing is, i can't stay late since it's scary, so before midnight, im already heading down to my room.

i sometimes use prepaid and papa or kel's lappy, but it's too slow... i hate up/downloading pictures using dial-up coz i get impatient. so to all my friends who are waiting for me to post our pictures (sawi pix during gix's bday and our AJA day!), ill post them as soon as we fix stuff up here at home...

anyway, ive already enrolled for our summer sem. im taking 3 subjects: RLE2, bio & pharma. wow! 6 straight weeks of crazy-living! i have classes fm monday-saturday.. what a summer!

can't wait for may... plans of going to boracay is the only push i have to go through each day. i just wish i have enough money by then...

hhmmm, im starting to get a headache... i hate getting sick!