WOW!

finally, im done with this sem's prelims!

clap, clap, clap!

and ATENEO just won over UP! and jc played so well! (although i didnt catch the entire game again since i had to be in school and take my research exam... kainis!)

clap, clap, clap, jump, jump, jump.. jump+clap, jump+clap, jump+clap...

we stand on a hill between the earth & sky... win or lose, it's the school we choose. this is the place where we belong... we pray you keep us Mary constantly true. we pray you keep us Mary faithful to you!

oh, happiness!
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finally, capria's arriving tomorrow. we were supposed to get her last weekend, but basti was not able to go and get her. so now, he's there, he's sleeping over... and when he comes home tomorrow, he'll be bringing her home!

and papa said we can finally get my camera from the repair shop. yey! i miss my camera. my friends say that kelay's digicam (the 1 iv been using) is nice coz we all come out pretty... but i swear, my camera is much much nicer! so she's coming home this week and im so excited :)

happiness, happiness!

no more drama, please

A simple life. That’s what I always ask for. Simple, uncomplicated, plain. I don’t like attention. I don’t like drama.

But goodness, u wouldn’t believe our weekend adventure. Even I have a hard time believing it. It feels like something out of the movies. And im hating every bit of it.

I swear, it’ll take me years and a whole lot of prayers to learn to forgive those people! people close to me know how much I love my family and friends. Mess with them, ur gonna get it from me. I know I resolved to be less violent, much nicer this year… but come on… I swear, those brainless gits will regret what they did.

No, I won’t break my new year’s resolution. But im gonna make sure that they’ll be so miserable!

AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
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so anyway, despite everything, im still staying positive. I know everything eventually falls into place, so I won’t be stressing too much. And I know that I do receive little blessings everyday. Right now, I take time to remember them before I go to sleep to keep me from going crazy with shit happening everywhere.

Like last week, I was craving for corn. When I came home from school, yaya bought corn for me and that’s what I had for dinner! I did not ask her to buy them for me… hmmm, pleasant surprise! yummy!

then last Saturday, ateneo won against ust… and intal played so well (although I wasn’t able to watch it since I could not go home, and I didn’t want to stay in my mom’s boss’ house without my sibs…)

also last saturday, my brother fell so in love with the shihtzu of my mom's boss. he went up to him and told him he wanted the doggie, so he gave it to my brother... which means we have a new dog! or we will have one, anyway... she (the dog, her name's CAPRIA... cute, ryt?) will be brought here this weekend. we could not bring her home yesterday since she still has a vet appointment, i think... im so excited!

another thing, harry potter 6 came out. we got our copy last saturday. i read it after kelay finished it. (prelims? what prelims?!) WOW! i actually cried when... haha, i won't ruin it for you! it's my new harry potter favorite. i can't wait for the movie to come out.

and earlier, I ran into an old friend. My sister asked me to buy her and her friends bibingcrepe. So after my class, I dropped by their store and I saw my high school batchmate. The best thing about it is that she partly owns half moon! So she gave me a discount card… and we chikad for a few minutes. It’s always nice to run into an old friend and get updated with stuff! I do hope our high school class (spcp2000! Unmask the unseen, juniors extreme!… stand back, amazed, seniors ablaze!) has a reunion soon. It’s been five long years, and it would be so nice to see those people again…

so anyway, yeah… I know I should not be blogging since it prelims week, I have 3 exams tomorrow, an oral and a written test on wed, a written and a practical test on thurs, an exam on Friday and on Saturday…

but it’s still early and studying at this time, with my brothers and sisters still up, will be totally fruitless.

Hmmmm.. so yea, ill be staying up until God-knows-what-time to try and cram whatever info I can cram into my brain… wish me luck!

an interesting survey...

i got this from the friendster bulletin board... i thought it would be interesting to answer it!

1. looks or charms?
definitely charms...
2. love that never was or love that could've been?
ouch... in my case, it has always been "could've been" and it sucks! 3x is enough, another one & id go crazy!
3. end up with a person who has everything you want and looking for, or end up with someone you totally connect with?
someone i totally connect with... coz sometimes, we think we want something/someone, and when we finally have him/her/it, we realize we want someone/something else... so i don't want to make that mistake and regret it.
4. be with a person you have lots in common with,or someone with a different personality from you?
somewhere in between... i don't want us to be totally similar coz it could get boring, but i don't want us to constantly fight coz we couldn't agree on anything
5. an inner bad boy/girl or an inner good boy/girl?
inner good!
6. smart or funny?
smart- but not nerdy smart... i want someone i could talk to... and someone who can make me laugh
7. a person more adventurous or a person more laid-back?
both please... someone willing to try new things.. food trip! road trip...but of course, there are days when i just want to do nothing...
8. think first before falling in love; or fall in love first, think later?
im more of a heart-over-mind person... but i realized that i think too much... that's why it always ends up as a could've been thing
9. give up everything for love or give up love to live your dreams?
right now, id have to say give up love to live my dreams.. but i guess that's coz im not in love... but ideally, my loved one would share my dreams so... in this not so ideal world, i have no idea
10. when you found someone you love, would you get into a relationship with that person knowing for sure it wouldn't last, or just be friends with them so that s/he will always be there?
get into a relationship... how can u be just friends with someone you are in love with? there's something so fake about it-- you're holding something back and i wouldn't want to offer a friendship that isn't genuine. plus, im sure that if you really love each other, things do fall into place... but i don't know, that happens in my ideal world...
11. when it comes to love, do you surrender to fate or break away from fate?
surrender to fate... i believe that we should let things be... i don't know, but i've always believed that when ur a couple, you shouldn't be working too hard on your relationship. yea, u have to exert some effort to make each other happy. and of course, there will always be problems to test you... but when ur always fighting and u keep on having problems and it seems like there's no end to it, then i believe it's time to let go... BUT this only goes for unmarried couples... coz i believe that once you get married, there's no giving up anymore... haha, hard to be in my ideal world!
12. meet "the one" at first love or have other relationships before finally meeting "the one"?
have other relationships before meeting the one... but not too much... 1 "trial" relationship is ok... haha!
13. would you fall for someone you can't have, or forget about it and distance yourself from her/him?
forget about it and distance myself from him... although that doesn't really work... well, it does, after a little over 4 years!
14. do you believe true love lasts forever or true love is whatever length of time you get to spend together?
true love lasts forever... im a relationship-idealist, remember?
15. find love or wait for love?
wait for love... coz im still young and having the time of my life.. but when im 27 and still single, im going on an all-out search for him!
16. would you settle for someone or continue to wait for someone that might never come?
continue to wait for someone... i don't settle for anything or anyone... if i can't have what/who i want, then i won't have any
17. seek approval of important people in your life before you marry someone, or it's your decision and your decision alone if you're going to marry her/him?
seek approval... coz when it comes to marriage, the honeymoon stage can only last for so long... when things are starting to get shitty, we'd need the support of people who matter to us. but im going to make sure that these important people in our lives would approve of us, or else...
18.making a commitment, easy or hard?
if im ready, then it's easy for me.

why we're best friends...

let me share this something aira wrote in her blog in response to my ranting... in a past blog, i asked, "why can't everything just be perfect?"

here's what aira said:

if everything is so perfect then we wouldn't know about important things like PATIENCE, PERSEVERANCE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE & SACRIFICES...we are living in an IMPERFECTLY PERFECT WORLD where people can laugh and cry at the same time...where miracles can happen twice...where fairy tales do not always have a "happily ever after" ending but have a SEQUEL instead...where sometimes we just don't know the answer but still have the courage to MOVE on :)

what else can i say about that? again, thanks sis for that! life may not be perfect, but who cares! there's a certain beauty in this world's imperfections!

as i've said: yoyeng na kung yoyeng, basta magkasama si yo & yeng! whatever life throws at us, we aren't worrying... we're toughies... perfectly straight, yet so tough!

WIN OR LOSE, IT'S THE SCHOOL I CHOOSE!

coz of k3n's text (which woke me up!) this morning, i ended up watching the ADMU-dlsu game live with them. we lost, but it's ok. i had so much fun. watchng an admu-dlsu game live will always be the naturalest & highest high :)

i know hiyang-hiya na ung friends ko... haha, i just miss watching it live. hel-lo?! i wasn't able to watch a single game last year, what do u expect? so fun! i super love INTAL!!!

basta, that person who sounded the horn when we were singing our alma mater, grrrr... UNEDUCATED! people like that give their school a bad name. i mean, it's one thing boo-ing the other team during free throws or trash talking when u think it's a bad call, but come on! blasting that freakin horn while we were singing our alma mater? has s/he ever heard of the concept of humility in victory? or even the simpler concept of RESPECT? if he doesn't understand, and in that case, respect our sentiment-- WIN OR LOSE, ATENEO IS THE SCHOOL WE CHOOSE, then i feel sad for him/her. i have nothing against la salle and most lasalistas, i just totally, totally dislike lasalistas like that.

im sorry if im ranting, but the ATENEO will always be the ATENEO for me.
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even if we lost, at least san miguel won the championship tonight! hmmm.. i miss watching the game. haha, when i remember our PBA days (me, ai & pearl), i laugh. so fun, i miss it!

oh well, back to reality for me, which means, studying for my nutrition test tomorrow... RIGHT! i don't know why i didn't start reading last nyt... i was just home... what did i do?

i was supposed to go out, either to greenbelt with tin, gi, kats & queenie or to eastwood with aira and the other screamers. gi didn't feel like going out, so greenbelt was cancelled. i slept in the pm, woke up at 7 with a slight headache and a bad case of tamaritis, so i ended up staying home. i miss staying home, i miss bonding with my bed. well, at least i have a long break tomorrow afternoon... i'll try studying for my quiz then :)

what would i say when somebody asks me...

i. "bakit ba palagi ka na lang ganyan?
- palaging ano? e ganto ako e... love me for what i am!
ii. "ngayon ko lang na-realize..mahal pala kita"
- talaga lang? matagal mo na akong mahal, ngayon ka lang nagkaron ng guts umamin! (haha, joke lang! hindi ko alam sasabihin ko e...)
iii. "iwanan mo na sya. mas magiging masaya ka sa piling ko.."
- well, wala naman akong iiwan e...
iv. "smile ka nga..cute mo kapag naka smile e.."
- gusto ko naka pout!
v. "gawin mo naman yung homework ko sa math"
- oo ba! gusto mo, pati thesis mo, ako na gumawa e! (o, wag sana mag react ang friends ko.. 1x lang ako magpapakatanga ng ganon!)
vi. "sino crush mo? ako diba?"
- hindi! si piolo! asa ka pa ha!
vii. "i am so blessed to have someone like you"
- thank you!
viii. "why does monday come before tuesday?"
- because love makes the world go 'round
ix. "may ticket ako sa concert ng blink182, wannawatch?"
- libre?
x. "isa ka sa mga pinakaspecial na tao sa buhay ko..alam mo ba yun?"
- sino ung iba?
xi. "nahuhulog na ata ako sayo.."
- ang ma in love, talo! - joke! .. im falling for you... finally, my heart gave in!
xii. "i can't smile without you.."
- you came along, just like a song to brighten my day!
xiii. "thank you sa lahat lahat. pero..hindi kasiya.."
- bahala ka
xiv. "wala lang"
- i love you too!
xv. "ano cell number mo?"
- baket?
xvi. "can i have this dance?"
- oh, sure.. why not?
xvii. "mahal ko pa din sya hangang ngayon.."
- huhuhu... sige, edi balik na lang ako sa dati kong mahal.. NYE!
xviii. "you were everything, everything that i wanted"
- were? hindi na now?
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my pictures are taking sooooooooooo long to upload! grrr dial up! so... more surveys!
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1.Name of last person u talked to on the phone?
aira
2.Have u g0ne swimming this year?
of course! but i need more!
3.When did u last receive a gift?
this am... my life (yea!)
4.What are u planning to do this weekend?
go to my NSTP class, not attend research, sleep, then probly go out with aira... hear mass the next day, lunch out and buy stuff i need
5.Last movie u watched?
batman begins with tin & gi... half of million dollar baby on dvd
6.What is/are your hobby/hobbies?
check my friendster
7.What is/are your ambition(s)?
be a nurse for a couple of years, retire, come home to the pinas and put up a business... or be a housewife!
8.What makes u happy?
lots! happy thoughts, happy moments, bonding moments, my family & friends, simple things...
9.What do u want to tell someone but you havent?
i havent told that person yet for a reason... it's all about timing
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1.Do u have a crush?
wala... ooops, piolo! haha, crush.. so highschool!
2.Do u believe in love?
of course, i do!
3.Are u easily attracted to the opposite sex?
nope! and according to some of my friends, that makes me pihikan
4.Do u get jealous easily?
no ren! super no-- to a fault...
5.Any people in-love with u right now?
wala e. sad :(
6.Want to get married?
i do! to a black or latino firefighter... ever since i saw ladder 49, iv been saying this! haha, weirdo! another one of my "dreams"... makes my life not-boring. please don't take me seriously
7.Ever did something unusual for love?
yea
8.What do u notice first in a person?
eyes, definitely
9.Last person u fell in-love with or currently in love with?
waaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!
10.Are u missing someone right now?
yup, lots!
11. What do you miss?
pare (my car when i was in glendale), my old room, my old bathroom, driving around when i feel like emoting, going to ralphs to hoard instant noodles & rice meals & juices, the el salvadorean bread my former officemate used to bring me every am, pad thai at the noodle house near my old office, doing my laundry & cleaning my room & bathroom... in short, i miss my glendale life... although id rather be here than there right now! i dont know why i miss it so much, when i was there, i cried until my parents allowed me to go home! haha! weirdo!... and of course, ATENEO life
12.Who do u want to hug right now?
people who need 1...
13. Person u want to spend the rest of ur life with?
my God's gift (wow! is this the result of a couple of days' worth of discussing love issues with tin, gi, zsazsa, aira, jeff, allen and whoever else? suddenly, im not so anti-relationships anymore?!)
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1. call me ____________
- yours! hehe! eurosa!
2. What color of shirt are you wearing right now?
- black
3. What Are You Watching Right Now?
- nothing
4. What Was The Last Thing You Ate?
- isaw @ UP... sinful! i went there 2x this week!
5. Do You Believe In Karma?
- i don't know...
6. If You Were A Crayon, what color would you be? Why?
- red... coz i love it
7. How Is The Weather Right Now?
- i have no idea.. im freezing here in my parents' rm
8. Last Person You Talked To On The Phone?
- aira.. but that was 2 days ago
9. Do You Like The Person Who Sent this?
- i got this from the friendster bulletin board.. my cousin posted it... i like my cousin, so...
10. How Are You Today?
- ok. happy-sad.
11. Favorite Drink(s)?
- water, pineapple juice
12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink?
- i don't like alcohol
13. Favorite Sport?
- to watch... basketball
14.Favorite Hair Color?
- black
15. Favorite Eye Color?
- brown
16. Favorite Band?
- wala
17. # of x bf/gf?
- single since birth... but if he's reading this, then 1.
18. Favorite Months?
- december
19. Favorite Foods?
- japanese! and nowadays... sampalok & boy bawang
20. What time is it?
- time for me to log off and find something else to do
21. Favorite Dates of the Year?
- december 10, feb5... not!
22. ??? no questions?!?!
- boo
23. What Was Your Favorite Toy As A Child?
- barbie
24. Summer or Winter?
- summer! beach... i can't stand the cold
25. Hugs Or Kisses?
- both, please
26. Chocolate Or Vanilla?
- whichever, except for ice cream, i don't like chocolate ice cream
27. What do you think about loving someone who doesn't love you?
- ouch. but it's ouchier if u love someone and s/he loves u back, but you're not together because of one reason or another... oooops! past is past!
28. What are the things that make you feel uncomfortable?
- hmmm... dysmenorrhea
29. Do You Think You're Normal?
- nope! im special
30. Friends You Have Had The Longest?
- my siblings! since their births
31. What Did You Do Last Night?
- nightly ritual, then sleep
32. Favorite perfume?
- right now, still
33. Who Inspires You?
- my God, my family, my friends
34. What Are You Afraid Of?
- having regrets
35. Plain, Buttered Or Salted Popcorn
- i dont like popcorn
36. Missing someone?
- a lot... miss na kung miss, kesa naman kasama mo & nasasaktan ka (dba aira?)
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yey! im done uploading! so just check out my online albums... my friendster photo album & my imagestation.com albums (search members: eurosa). i can't remember the links right now, just check again in a few days...

pictures uploaded

ive uploaded some pictures in my friendster photo album... so aside from the galera pix, u can also find our pix when we visited jacey's parents in bataan last june 12 and our pix in the fort last july 2.

so sad, i can upload only up to 50 pix a month. ill upload na lang the other pix @ imagestation.com.

nope, no dsl connection for us yet. dial-up is so slow!

where do broken hearts go?

outside kester, tambaying when they don't feel like going home yet... or to metrowalk... or to eastwood... haha, right...

drama, huh?

well, for the past couple of weeks, all we (meaning me & aira, plus jeff & allen minsan or me, tin & gigi, and whoever sits with us when we are ranting...) ever talk about is love problems.

i get so sad when i see my friends going through issues of the heart. why can't everything just be perfect? why can't people who love each other be together? why can't people who still love each other stay together?

wala lang...

i was going through my phone earlier, and i once again got to read this message richard sent me some months back...

ayaw mo mag mahal?

baket?

kse malungkot pag iniwan ka?

kse malungkot pag sinaktan ka?

kse malungkot pag di ka nya mahal?

pero sa gnagawa mong pag -iwas sa kalungkutan...


masaya ka ba?

wow, wala lang...

weird... everything's just so weird.

ONE BIG FIGHT!

i was supposed to blog about the love issues my friends and i have been discussing since... hmm, since last month, but then my blog was getting too long and too depressing. no nega vibes muna. let's all be happy!

UAAP's opening this weekend! and the first admu-dlsu game's this sunday. of course i want to watch. i wasn't able to watch a single game last year, not even on tv! :( let's just hope we could get tickets! im so excited! iv been practicing our cheers in my head since the other night! and im adding the admu cheers to zen tomorrow or friday. how fun!

anyway, in true blue spirit, allow me to sing our alma mater. (hindi 'to copy-paste, ha! i typed it... im so excited tlga!)

we stand on a hill
between the earth & sky
now all is still
where Loyola's colors fly
our course is run
and the setting sun
ends Ateneo's day
eyes are dry
at the last goodbye
this is the Ateneo way...

Mary for you
for your white and blue
we pray you keep us, Mary
constantly true
we pray you keep us, Mary
faithful to you!

down from the hill
down to the world go I
remembering still
how the bright blue eagles fly
through joys and tears
through the laughing years
we sing our battle song:
WIN OR LOSE, IT'S THE SCHOOL WE CHOOSE!
this is the place where we belong

Mary for you
for your white & blue
we pray you keep us, Mary
constantly true
we pray you keep us, Mary
FAITHFUL TO YOU!
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B-L-U-E E-A-G-L-E, blue eagle, blue eagle, blue eagle, THE KING!

yey! go ATENEO!

almost out of blog-circulation...

wow! so i haven't posted anything for almost a month. it's all aira's fault! (kidding, sis!)

what's been up since i last posted? hmmm, im trying to remember...

june 9 - first st. jude adventure with aira. so now, it's part of our yoyeng sisters vow to go there every thursday. a long day of walking. our first time to ride a jeep, just the 2 of us. and no, we don't look like lost probinsyanas. after st. jude, we went to megamall, then dropped by my house, then went to this small parlor near aira's house. then i went home, packed, added some songs to zen, picked gi & tin up from tin's, went to kats place & slept over.

june 10- ate allah's bday! (see, i never forget her bday! & i make it a point to show up when she invites us... unlike her-- she was not there during my debut, my last bday, my despedida...) the kadabears left for our fontana adventure. the girls went swimming. the guys, i dont know. they stayed in the villa the entire day.

june 11- bonding with tin from 3 til 7 in the am. trip home from fontana.

june 12- went to bataan with some of the sawi to visit jace's parents and to make her a video for her bday.

june 13- stayed home and finally got that much deserved rest!

june 14- school started.

and everything else is a blur...

aira & i finally started our scrapbook part 2. i was going through our first scrapbook, something we started in 2001... ewwwwwww! i can't believe i was like that over what happened then! but hey, we all make mistakes. HE was one big mistake.

i changed my sked a couple of times. that's the fad in our school. in Ateneo, u wouldn't want to get load rev since u have to go through so much... but in kester, load reving is fun!

so my final sked (sis, as promised...)
mon & tues:
12.30- 2 -- earth sci
2- 3.30 -- logic
break
5.40- 7.10 -- nutrition

wed:
9- 12 -- speech
3-5 -- ncm 100 lec
5- 8 -- ncm 100 lab

thurs & fri:
5.40- 8.10 -- microbiology

sat:
7-10 -- nstp
1-4 -- research

yea.. laugh. i have class mon-sat. it sucks. i skipped nstp today since i slept around 3 na. shouldn't have gone out with sila aira... but hey, jeff & allen are leaving tuesday. im gonna miss those guys, i swear! ill still bug u with my sub-sob stories! hehe.. and ill always listen to ur love probs! we're just a YM away!

some lessons for the heart

this is something allen sent me yesterday. yan, len ha! i posted it both here and in the friendster bulletin board!
thanks for the bonding... for sharing and for listening. mamimiss tlga kita! ill miss u and jeff! balik kayo agad! next year, come a bit earlier, we could go to bohol and all those nice beaches...

BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today

BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares

BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him

BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right now

BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me

BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesnt mean it

BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it

BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend

BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug

BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried

BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him
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so, what can we learn from this? simple!

1. HONESTY! it's what the world needs. it's what i need. it's what you probably need.
2. it's NEVER TOO LATE! not if you do something about it...
3. if we know that the heart is not always right, then WE SHOULD DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! (yihee, richard... i remember the quote u sent me some months back... u know, about the heart not being always right... special! pare, gudluck sa love life. sana mag-graduate ka na sa pagiging TIIS! 2 na graduates ng SAWI e...)