grrrr vibes

woke up with bad vibes... i didnt feel like going to school for enrollment. but i had to go, so i did.

a few minutes after i got there, kats told me that they're not giving us our scholarship coz according to them, we have this verbal warning. so i asked sir jun, he said nga that we could not avail of that scholarship. so i asked him where in the handbook could i find that, he left me and went to VP acad and mam che. then he came back and told me that they'll have a meeting about it and let me know this afternoon. hassle, man!

so anyway, we had lunch. then we went to capitol to inquire coz some of us were thinking of transferring. well, we couldnt since they offered NCM 100 (a subject we need before we could do hospital duty) during summer.

so we went back to school, and as soon as we arrived, sir jun told me that they were giving us our scholarship. good, ryt?

well, to avail of the scholarship, we had to fill out a form and get a copy of our grades during the 2nd sem and summer sem. our scholarship depends on our weighted average during the 2nd sem. but if we got a grade lower than 2 during the summer sem, we could not avail of the scholarship. they were giving full scholarship to those with weigthed grade of 1-1.25. u know what my weighted grade is? 1.26. how funny...

afterwards, i had to have dean or grammar guru evaluate my subjects. i went to grammar guru... and what good news do i hear? i have to take chem all over again since i lack 1 freakng unit. i took chem in ateneo, but we had only 1 lab unit. last time, dean said that i just had to enroll chem lab and ask my prof for a special project. so anyway, it was so irritating, that i decided to just go home and go back to school tomorrow and have dean evaluate me. damn it!

i was so tired that i didn't go to aira's house anymore. when i got home, i checked my mail then logged out. then jacob texted, telling us that he posted our galera pix online already. so i went online again. since the pix are taking so long to show, i checked my friendster. i looked at the friendster sites of some of my friends... and guess what i saw...

oh, never mind.

let me just confirm what my friends and i have proven again and again... friendster can mess up relationships, make u enemies, let u know things that you shouldve never known, and break your heart. if ur into stalking, surf friendster all day!... but make sure that you are ready to find out whatever it is that you could find out in friendster...

irresponsibility

when i dropped by my house before heading for the bus station yesterday, we saw a pajero that smashed into a meralco post near my house. and guess what... the driver's stupidity caused the power in our house to go out!

i can guiltlessly call the guy driving that pajero stupid since he survived the crash. (otherwise, it will be a tragedy, and i would feel sad for that person...) i mean, come on! gawsh, if ur gonna drink, (well, im just assuming that he was drunk. why else would he slam his car into that post? for fun?) please, but smart enough... save urself... and don't hassle other people! i mean, my family and all the people here were sleeping... then u killed the power? hassle, man! grrrrrr!

galera tales

after confirming with kats that our kgc barkada trip was postponed, i immediately texted zarah that ill be going to galera with them. so without much time to go shopping and plan what to bring, i went to galera!

i was supposed to wax my legs (thanks to my father for handing me down genes that made me so hairy!) then pack the entire friday afternoon so i could sleep around 9pm since we were meeting up at 2.30 am saturday to go to galera. but aira came over and we hang out so everything got pushed to the evening.

i finished waxing and packing around 12.15 am, so i told myself ill just take a power nap, wake up 1.30 and take a bath. but my brother and father dear were watching emergency on tv, and they had this feature on henna. my brother went to galera 2 weeks ago, got a henna on his back, and developed an allergy. so they both forbid me to get a henna.

so anyway, without sleep, i went to za's house to pick some of them up. so okay, we agreed to leave at 2.30. i was 10 minutes late since i could not wake the driver up. when i got there, most of them were just waking up. so i had to wait a few minutes for them to finish their rituals. then we had to pass by my house to get kelay's digicam and my shawl (since i did not feel like bringing a sweater.)

so around 3.45, we again met up with the rest of them at wendy's in buendia. we took a bus to batangas pier, took a 6am boat to galera and got there around 7am! we got a good morning greeting as we were nearing galera... 2 dolphins were doing a show! fabulous!

so as soon as we got there, we said hello to zarah's family, we dropped our stuff in our room, changed, then headed to the beach...

ohmigod... BEACH! i just love the sand, the sun, the water... (i just didn't like the fact that it's so crowded... gawsh, in bohol, we had the entire beach to ourselves... uuhmm, not really, but it felt that way! well, what the hell, live and let live, ryt?)

the beach was not exactly great (i mean, compared to bohol...), but a beach is still a beach! so we chose a spot, spread our sarongs and beach towel, and had the time of our lives! oh, happiness!

then before lunch, we decided to do the banana boat... it was so FUN! all of us went, except for jew, who rode in the speedboat (si lola talaga, o!) well, at least we had someone to take our pix! we fell 5 times (jacob fell 6 times... nandaya e!)

we had lunch, sinigang na blue marlin... yum!! (thanks to za's mom and dad, who were celebrating their 24th wedding anniversary that day... which zarah forgot!) after lunch, we went to this resort, and spent the afternoon in the pool. we saw juls (my I AM groupmate!) he was there for their company outing.

after a few hours, we decided to go back to the beach and go shopping. i bought some stuff while enjoying indian mangos... this is the life!

around 4, we decided to go to the cave, but i was so tired, i didn't feel like crawling a cramped space. only 4 of them went in, while the rest of us just sat on the sand.

when k3n, golps, nes & gix got back from the cave, we went into the water. it was fun playing and "surfing"! we were also teaching jew how to skip stones... (i can only do 3 bounces... i have to practice more!)

around 5, we got our massage. so imagine, i got out of the water, spread myself down on the sand and got my massage... how good can life get?! after our massage, we waited 15 mins before going into the water again. after a few minutes, since it was getting dark, we went back to our room, took a bath and got ready for dinner.

late dinner, then we shared a pitcher of mindoro sling (which i didnt like very much since it had sprite!) then we headed for our room, got our sarongs and towel, then flopped down on the sand... gawsh... i fell asleep for around 30 mins... there were no stars when we first got ther since it was very cloudy. but when i woke up, there were a lot of stars... so beautiful! again, can i just say, life is so beautiful! it was getting a little cold, so i used a beach towel as my blanket...

a little after midnight,, we went back to our room and called it a nyt... what a wonderful day... say it with me... FABULOUS!

this morning, we woke up around 7, and of course, headed to the beach. i didn't go into the water anymore, so i spent the morning lying down on my beach towel, and people watching (kainis, bitin ung tan! malilim kase yesterday afternoon, so bitin tlaga! i more day at the beach... i need just one more day!)

around 9, i took a bath, fixed our stuff.. had brunch, then took the 12 nn boat back to batangas pier. we took a van back to manila, we had a road maniac for a driver... then got off at shang. the other girls wanted to at nachofast, so we went there. i was getting ready to go (i walked home! walang pagod!) when i saw...

PIOLO!!! he was going up the escalator!

ohmigawsh... dang! hotness! say it with me... WHOA!!! thank you God!

so there... that was my weekend adventure... i was supposed to sleep when i got home, but i watched some dvds instead...

and tomorrow, well, back to reality... i have to go to school and enroll... God, please let it be an easy enrollment... wag po sanang bad trip. i hope i get the subjects i need, and i hope i get a really nice sked!

i havent posted pix since we moved... im using dial up, and i have no patience to wait for the files to upload. ill upload as soon as we get DSL...

reality tv

after 7 seasons, the team i was rooting for in the amazing race actually won!

i watched the contender finale yesterday... i wish i watched the show since it began... it was fabulous!

i have been rooting for bo to win american idol, but i must admit that carrie did perform better last nyt. oh well...

i just feel a little sad for these guys who join american idol to start their career. i think they're tied to the show's producers, which, i feel, limits their opportunities. look at fantasia, ruben & kelly... i mean, i actually thought they'd be bigger... oh well... life goes on!

ooooppsss... reacted too soon!

i was so bummed last nyt since i thought i would not be able to go to any beach this summer. turns out, ill be going to galera this weekend. then me and my kester friends are going to batangas sometime next week...

wow! sand... sun... beach!!!

a little validation

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Gawd, this is perfect! everything fits... well-- except for the last part. yea, i dont think love is something i need right now, but i also don't feel like flirting or playing around.

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You Are 20 Years Old

20 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

hmmm.. i always knew i was a bit immature... so im not actually a "cradle snatcher" when i like younger guys...

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whatta summer...

dang... this summer is the pits!

first, i had summer classes for the first time ever in my life-- and in 6 short weeks, we had that major issue with our school.

then, my first week off, i got sick. an entire week of not feeling well...

and now, there's this chance that i might not go to any beach before school starts!

why, oh, why? have i been so bad? have i done anyone wrong? why am i being punished? (if anyone thinks im being overly melodramatic, well, just press alt+F4... thanks!)

the last time i went to the beach was sept19 of last year. that's over 8 months!

i honestly want to cry right now...

well, u see, my kester barkada was supposed to go to laiya in batangas last tuesday. change of plans, we were supposed to go this friday. then we learn that the place we're supposed to go to is fully booked. we couldnt think of anywhere else to go, so they're saying, we could go to laguna... find a house with a pool that we could rent.

i know we're going there for some bonding. i mean, it doesn't matter where we are, as long as we get to spend time together and totally forget our problems.

but, come on... everyone needs to go to the beach on summers!

hmmm, i still have 3 weeks. who knows, ryt?

survey til ur sick of it!

this one's actually for aira.. so she'd have something to do during her jetlag attacks..

What's the story behind your name?
> 3rd generation of rose. my lola’s rosita, ma’s rose marie… its just a variation.. it also means “you are my rose” (im the only one insisting my name means that!)

What do you like doing when you're sad?
> pray, sleep, go shopping

What do you want to name your future child/children?
> i haven’t decided

What makes you nervous?
> hmmm, I don’t know.

What makes you cry?
> sad movies… when im frustrated

Your wish when you last blew your birthday candles?
> world peace :) actually, I forgot…

Do you follow fashion trends?
> nope!

Have you ever ran away?
> never.. never wanted to. masaya sa house e!

Have you ever intentionally ignored someone?
> yup! guilty!

For how long?
> the longest? some months

Have you ever went on a romantic date? with whom?
> according to mamush, past is past…

When was the last time you received a love letter?
> too long ago… the last was fm my ex, so go figure

When was the last time you wrote a love letter?
> the last one i wrote was for my ex ren, so centuries ago pa

If you could spend a whole week anywhere you want, where would you go?
> it’s a tie between magic mountain and some secluded beach

What do you think of your past?
> happy.. full of adventure

How did you spend yesterday?
> heard mass, had lunch somewhere in makati, went home.. bum day

What time did you go to bed last night?
> unusually early.. arnd 1 am

Who was the last person who said good night to you last night?
> my brother vicky, i think

What time did you wake up this morning?
> before 9?

Do you know what woke you up?
> my phone, it was ringing coz sean was calling, but I didn’t pick up

Who was the first person you saw this morning?
> vicky, sleeping in his bed

What did you have for breakfast?
> water and my vitamins

What was the first song you listened to today?
> we belong together

What did you have for dinner last night?
> i forgot

Did you go anywhere today?
> school since we were supposed to enroll, but we couldn’t yet coz they still haven’t finalized the sched, then had lunch at kfc, planned our batangas trip, uap to pick aira up, greenhills, then my house to hang out for a bit, then brought aira home

Did you make/receive any phone calls today?
> yea

What did u wish for when you woke up this morning?
> world peace :)

What is ur plan right now?
> finish this, freshen up, read angels & demons, then sleep

Are u thinking about someone? Who?
> yup! my friends!

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1. last place i've been to:
> landcom just to bring aira home

2. i am:
> trying to get sleepy

3. they say i am...
> tanga sa pag-ibig (sabi nila noni… wow, they saw that fast! It took my other friends years to realize that!)

4. yesterday:
> was a bum day

5. last person who missed called?
> noni

6. last person you called?
> aira

7. last name in your received calls?
> sean

8. how old are you?
> 22

9. what music is playing?
> none.. the tv’s on, but no one’s watching

10. last thing you drank?
> water

11. last thing you bought for yourself?
> apple & lychee shake

12. you want to:
> go to the beach… NOW!

13. i really like:
> the beach… and roller coasters

14. i have a crush on:
> ryt now, no one…

15. i really hate:
> I don’t hate…

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. got wasted?
> yeah.. never again!

2. ran away?
> nope.. never wanted to

3. broken someone's heart?
> yup… mine

4. had your heart broken?
> uh-huh

5. wished someone died?
> no! mean!

6. broken a bone?
> nope

7. cried in school?
> yup… not coz of school stuff, though

THIS OR THAT:
1. coke or pepsi?
> neither

2. sprite or 7up?
> neither

3. flowers or candies?
> candies

4. quiet or loud?
> quiet

5. blondes or brunettes?
> brunettes nlng

6. tall or short?
> tall

WHAT/WHO IS:
1. your good luck charm?
> I don’t know

2. person you hate most?
> again, I don’t hate

3. fave number/s
> 7

WHAT IS/ARE YOUR FAVORITE:
1. color/s?> red! and im liking yellow & pink ren

2. movie/s?
> jerry maguire!, hitch, olivier, olivier, beauty & the beast… a lot, actually

3. book/s?
> the notebook, love story, a walk to remember, angels & demons, the da vinci code, harry potter stuff

4. subject/s in school?
> philo103

5. holiday/s?
> christmas

6. season?
> summer if i could go to the beach

WHO:
1. makes you laugh the most?
> most of my friends

2. makes you smile?
> most people

3. has a crush on you?
> wala e

DO/DID YOU:
1. sit by the phone waiting for a call all night?
> nope!

2. chat online?
> YM lng

3. save emails?
> yup!

4. wish you were someone else?
> no way

5. cry in front of friends:
> yep

6. any last words?
> uh… more surveys ahead

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1.Who are you with right now?
-- my parents sleeping behind me

2.Where did you go last?
-- landcom to bring aira home

3.Who were you with?
-- aira

4.What did you do there?
-- hinatid si aira

5.What time is it?
-- 12.36 AM

6.EK or Splash Island?
-- uhhmm.. magic mountain? gusto ko lng sumakay ng roller coaster now.. yup, ryt now!

7.Have you been to FONTANA?
-- yea

8.If yes, who were you with?
-- last time, meco people… that was 3-4 yrs ago!

9.Name of the 1st person who texted you today?
-- noni

10.What time did he/she texted you?
-- before 8

11.What time did you text him/her back?
-- i didn’t text back… i txtd her lunch time to ask her abt something else

11.Name of last person you texted last night?
-- jan

12.Name of last person you texted today?
-- father dearest

13.Name of last person you talked to on the phone, how long?
-- aira, a minute lng ata

14.Have you gone swimming this year?
-- NOT YET… damn it!

15.Where will you go tomorrow?
-- divisoria!!!

16.Do you like rock songs?
-- not really

17.What are you doing right now?
-- answering this survey

18.Color of shirt you're wearing right now?
-- blue

19.Where are your closest friends right now?
-- around…

20.Where is your favorite place?
-- my bed

21.Do you believe in magic?
-- yup! coz it’s magic when 2 people fall in love… haha! seriously, i like watching magic shows… i know they’re just tricks and all, pero they’re amazing!

22.Church wedding or garden wedding? why?
-- church! san Sebastian church, then some old church in some nice province…i love san sebastian, and i lyk old churches :)

23.Do you often tease/criticize other people?
-- nope

24. Are you easily attracted to the opposite sex?
-- no

25.What are the physical qualities you like in the opposite sex?
-- nice eyes

26.What will you do after this?
-- go to my room, freshen up then read a book

28.Any favorite food?
-- japanese! ryt now, im craving pad thai, cali rolls and hawaiian pizza

29.How do you feel right now?
-- not sleepy.. excited to go to divisoria tomorrow

30.Why?-- not sleepy since i now normally sleep arnd 4, excited to go to divisoria to buy cheap stuff

31.What do you wanna be when you grow up?
-- isa pong nars! and eventually, a mom (khet hindi na wife… although that would be nice if only I find that perfect houseband…) and later on, an owner of a beautiful beach house

32.Does that make you happy?
-- yup! definitely would!

33.What do you want to happen to you after getting off the computer?
-- feel fresh, fall asleep

34.Lyrics of a song that you are feeling right now?
-- i don’t know…

35.Things you regret?
-- no regrets!

36.What are you thinking right now?
-- my divisoria trip with yaya in the morning!

37. How long did you take in answering this?
-- i wasn’t timing myself
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1.ano pinakaayaw mong kulay?
- wala naman…. they're all nice

2. anong pinaka ayaw mong prutas?
- wala ren… i like fruits

3. anong pinaka ayaw mong kanta?
- those songs with senseless lyrics that just stick to ur head, and u can’t get them out

4. sino ang pinaka ayaw mong powerpuff girl?
- wala naman.. theyre ok

5. ayaw ko sa mga taong...
- feelers

6. anong pinaka ayaw mong nangyari this year?
- that thing that happened after midterms this summer sem

7. ayaw ko nang ____ pero ginagawa ko pa rin.
- maging mean to some people

8. ano ang all-time na pinaka ayaw mong movie?
- wala naman

9. what day of the week do you hate the most?
- wala ren… everyday’s nice

10. how about month?
- there’s a reason to like every month ren

11. ano ang pinaka ayaw mo sa school mo?
- awww… don’t get me started!!! 1. it’s too small 2. parang walang sistema 3. no parking 4. ang gulo ng sked 5. some teachers who appear as if they don’t know what they’re talking abt 6. teachers who don’t exert even the slightest effort to go over the lesson so they don’t appear stupid in front of the class 7. some yabang guys who think they’r all that 8. chismosa ppl 9. ppl who go hating our group without even making an effort to get to know us 10. laging sira ang aircon 11. lagging nasisira ang chairs 12. no cafeteria 13. kulang classrooms 14. weak/ no signal sa basement 15. no tambayan … 16. teachers who can’t construct a grammatically correct sentence (especially in written exams… some questions are really difficult, not coz of what’s being asked.. but coz i cant figure out what’s being asked… gawsh… if you were able to see some of my test papers.. I swear!!!) etc, etc. why am I staying, u may ask? Kse sayang ung scholarship, my friends are there, and hassle maglipat-lipat. Besides, its actually bearable, im just making it sound so bad…

12. how about the subject you hate most?
- i don’t actually hate subjects… i just strongly dislike some teachers… especially if they appear as if they don’t know what they’re talking abt

13. anong katangian ng crush mo ang ayaw mo?
- wala now.. but the last one? ang labo nya!

14. sinong pinaka ayaw mong naging teacher mo?
- don’t ask

15. bakit mo ayaw ung cellphone mo?
- nalaglag one time sa community.. kaya un, may gasgas na sha.. but otherwise, i love my celly!

16. anong pinaka ayaw mong uaap team?
- atenista ako… i don’t care abt the other teams… i just love my team!

17. anong pinaka ayaw mong number?
- wala naman…

18. ayaw ko pang...
- magka boyfriend!

19. sino pinaka ayaw mong tao sa friendster list mo?
- this is dumb…

20. anong pinaka ayaw mo sa mundo ngayon?
- ang gulo! pinas palang.. gawsh, just look around!
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anyway, what's been up? well, i was sick the entire 1st week of vacation! got sick on monday after cleaning my room. felt a little ok by friday, although i had a splitting headache almost the entire day (i was reading harry potter bk5 til 5 am that day, so i guess harry possessed me...) turns out that was just me PMSing, then i had dysmenorrhea saturday til sunday... now, wasn't that wonderful?!

beach... i need to go to the beach... beach... sand... water... sun...

uneventful first week of the break

summer sem ended last Saturday, with us taking our finals in bio and pharma. i got my grades in those 2 subjects already-- so proud to say that i got a 1 in pharma and a 1.25 in bio (that just disproves that i totally suck in bio! ooh, highschool days…)

after our finals, some of us went to fazolis for dinner. we also were supposed to watch a movie, but then we couldn’t agree on a movie to see. so we ended up just sitting on the couch fronting the restrooms and taking pictures. then, we decided to go to dennis’ house and drink.

the guys got beer, us girls had boracay (well, that’s what gigi calls it. us meco ppl call it the brown drink). some of the guys played basketball, but since it was really warm, we didn’t feel like doing anything else, so we just sat down and drank.

we all went home before 4 am, jan slept over. heard mass the next day, then had lunch at pasto in gh.

stayed home the entire monday and finally got around to cleaning my room. i got sick monday night, i guess due to the dust. tuesday, i went to school to meet my RLE2 groupmates to finalize our paper. got to the meeting late since we don’t have a driver anymore, and i had to wait for my brother to drive me to school. (and i can’t drive since i lost my philippine license! vicjay says I could go with him and inna next friday to get my license, so until then, i remain semi-immobile… )

after the meeting, we went to heaven and eggs for snacks. now, i don’t want to comment on the place. well, it was ok, actually. i guess we just expected too much. afterwards, we FINALLY got our manicure & pedicure!

yesterday, kats texted us… drinking sesh and dvd marathon over at her place. i could not go since i got fever since the night before. dang, that sucks.

anyway, im feeling a bit better now. no more fever, but iv still got cough and colds, and my throat still hurts. i just hope i get better tonight coz…

MY BESTFRIEND’S BACK!

well actually, her plane is landing in less than 4 hours and 31 minutes if it follows schedule. can't wait! after not seeing each other for over 8 months, we’d go crazy updating each other with our stories. yea, we get to talk and email and YM, but then nothing beats telling our stories with actions (yup, that’s how we tell our stories. kelangan talaga with demo!)

but first things first. i have to help her unpack and fix her room. but after that… we’re off to having the time of our lives!!!

yoyeng days are here, sis!!!

toxic

the past week has been so toxic, im so surprised im still alive... and able to blog, at that!

this week is finals week. i have 3 finals coming up-- one later this afternoon, and the other 2 on saturday. plus we have to defend our community assessment for RLE2. my gosh, i can't believe how toxic THAT ALONE is!

since last week, ive been getting 5 hours of sleep MAX each night. i would sometimes go to our community with just 2 hours of sleep. (well, there were times that i was not really busy, i just could not fall asleep. insomnia attack again!) but my lack of sleep does not really bother me (although i hate it coz my eyes now look scary...)

what really sucks about all these is the fact that ive spent so much since last week. all in all, i think ive spent over 1500. that really sucks coz ive been saving up for my trips... daym!

well, ive spent 5 days working in different coffee shops. i never did that back in ateneo! i mean, yea, we would work for several straight days, but we'd usually work in someone's house. (hmmm, golps! i miss ur mom's cooking... and UP stopover with ob, juls, andrew, alec & van before going to ob's)

so anyway, i feel like iv had too much caffeine in my system, but im not stopping. i just love the tea lattes and the ice blended green tea over at coffee bean!
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i realized one thing today. waking up to study or work on something does not work for me. i tried that this morning, and i swear, i sucked the entire day. i could not think straight, i could not type properly, i almost felt like giving up on our project, especially when our CI told us that we had to revise some stuff... some major revision.

anyway, a good thing happened today... they moved our defense to friday. so that means we could work on our project later... which also means that if i do that, then i would have to stay up late and study for my bio & pharma pre-finals on thurs, then stay up late again to study our final paper for our defense then finish our scrapbook due also on friday.

c'mon, say it with me... TOXIC!

just thinking about everything i still have to do frustrates and tires me.

but at least i have something to look forward to next week!

8 days to go, sis!

PLUS, i can finally go to the beach!!!

just a little bit more sacrifice...

i have a question...

can you believe it? me, posting 2 days in a row.. when i should be working on our thesis or something!?!

but let me ask you just this one thing... i hope someone can answer this...

how do you get out of a bad relationship?

be it a bf-gf relationship... or one you have with a certain friend who turns out to be just hanging on to you to save his/her ass... or a guy/girl who acts all sweet/mushy/assuming/paasa around you...

bad ones, unhealthy ones...

wala lang, i just thought that even though we know how unhealthy the relationship is, we refuse to let go and give up... not just because of fear that you might hurt the other person-- but because you know that letting go would hurt you more, for reasons only you could understand (hell, sometimes, even you can't understand your reason!)

oooohhhh, mushy and sentimental me.

kasalanan 'to ni mike g! sa kanya galing yung tanong na "how do you get out of a bad relationship?" e! but in all fairness to him, someone else asked him that, and he could not give a good enough answer to it either!

operation TULI

because of the stuff that's been happening in school, i really could not think of anything else... good thing our fabulous (***hint of sarcasm***) president declared this an extension of the holiday, so i got to rest, somehow.

anyway, i mentioned in a previous post that we would be helping out in operation tuli. yup, we did help out. i got to assist the doctor once. it was funny coz the first kid i was supposed to assist with had a very small, uhm, u know, so i could not retract the skin and... i won't go into details, so i hope you get the point.

anyway, the doctor said that we could not circumcise him yet coz he's not tagpos pa. so we sent him back to his father, and another kid came into the room.

the procedure was pretty fast, and im so glad that the kid i assisted with was not a bleeder.

afterwards, i went upstairs to my CI. she told us to take a turn in actually performing circumcision. so together with 2 other groupmates, i actually got to try circumcising a kid, with the supervision of our CI.

it was so fun! i actually got to cut the skin and take a turn in suturing. then of course, we had to do the dressing. it wasn't as hard as i thought.

so anyway, that evening, our prof asked us to write about our experience. i just wanted to share something i realized today.

... there are things that test our resolve to do the things we are doing. this community activity is one such thing that tested my resolve to pursue nursing... and iv come to realize that i actually like what im doing. not coz of the money that is involved in it... i just enjoy! (and even with all the crap we're going through in school, id still say i want to finish nursing!)